Virtually everyone dreams of fame and fortune- but rarely do these dreams come with recognition of the adverse effects of celebrity, including the pressure to keep up a perfect image regardless of what is happening off stage.

In their new single “Drugs In California,” indie pop band Transviolet are confronting this phenomena of both being thankful for having a following while also walking the tightrope that is being in the public eye.

Giving a bit of insight on the story behind the song, vocalist Sarah McTaggart shares: “Drugs in California is a song about a toxic relationship. Specifically, it’s about a toxic relationship between fame and adoration.”

Starting off with the line “of all the drugs in California, you’re the one that fucks my head up most,” followed by “I don’t want to want you, but I do,” the track compares this desire to be loved and admired to an addiction- something you both want but can see ruining your perception of the world around you should it be taken too far.

Using McTaggart’s attention grabbing vocal styling, along with a catchy instrumental track and acute distortion that gives the illusion of being underwater- potentially a sonic representation of drowning in the anxiety of fame- the song draws listener’s in with it’s indie-pop feel and allows them to find themselves in the song.

Fame may not be their drug, but that doesn’t stop “Drugs in California” from perfectly representing any toxic relationship and the struggle to get out.

“I won’t lie to you, it feels amazing to have people connect with my work so deeply- to feel so seen, understood, and appreciated- to be adored. That feeling can be really addictive, even destructive. it’s made me question myself- who I am, my intentions, my integrity; at times it’s made me feel isolated and disconnected from people. it’s fucked with my head more than anything else I’ve ever experienced. should I want this? should I not want this? I still don’t know.”

Sarah McTaggart, Transviolet

You can stream “Drugs in California” out now, wherever you stream music.

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